Friday, March 11, 2011

Heartbreaking

Jack: "Mommy, why don't I have a brother yet?"

Me, heart sinking toward kneecaps: "Because God hasn't sent us one yet."

"When will he send us one?"

"Don't know, buddy.  Wish I knew." (cries in pillow)

This, for me, is the most heartbreaking part of secondary infertility.

19 comments:

  1. My nephew told my sister once that he was worried that she was getting too old to have more babies. She had been trying for 5 years for her second at that point, and was only 33. He wanted a sibling so badly and all of their friends had large families. It was really hard for her :(.

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  2. So sad. :( I can see why that is upsetting. I'm praying for you.

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  3. Ah I'm so sorry :( I'll pray for Jack to have a sibling.

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  4. My Mom had secondary infertility and I eagerly claimed my part to pray for a SISTER for years. After brother #1 came (I was 6)I prayed again for a SISTER! Brother #2 came when I was 11. Oh well...! I have a wonderful SIL now from J's side of the family!! :) Praise God for unanswered prayers- I wouldn't trade my brothers for any sister!

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  5. So painful!!! MAkes me cry! I'm so sorry!!

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  6. I totally feel your pain Nicole. Totally. I can't tell you the number of times that Mikey asked and prayed for a sibling. I choked back tears many many times, then let them lose when I was alone or with my husband. I wanted so badly for him to not just have a sibling, but for him to see that God DOES answer prayer. Lo and behold, it took 5 years of him praying before Dominic came along. But it has been a HUGE faith booster for my son. That's the real blessing. I pray it will be the same for Jack. Tell him to keep praying! The prayers of children are powerful. We'll keep praying too, of course :) Hugs to you :)

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  7. I'm so sorry. I can't wait till the day when you can tell him (please God) that his prayers and yours have been answered. Hugs!

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  8. Nicole, ((HUGS) I am sorry- so painful~
    Praying for you.

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  9. I am praying too Nicole, I hope someday you look back and some of this makes sense. That day can't come soon enough though can it?

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  10. (((((hugs)))))

    I'm an only child, and I used to long for a sibling. I know my parents wanted to give me one, especially when I was very young, but I'm not sure how long they tried or what did/didn't happen. What I do know is that I married a man with the best 2 brothers in the world, whom I adore like they were my own. I'm praying that you can give him some siblings, but I know now that in-law siblings are also pretty great if it doesn't happen. And like Second Chances said, prayers of a child are so powerful! LOTS of hugs and prayers for you.

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  11. I am so sorry! My Dh was like your Jack growing up... wanting a sibling so badly and praying so hard. He finally got a little brother when he was seven and a surprise little sister when he was 13. I can only imagine how those years broke his mother's heart. I will say, I have seen God work through their family structure in some neat ways. He is a sensitive man with a sweet spot for family life... not something you see in a lot of young men. I pray Jack can have a sibling soon!

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  12. Oh Nicole,

    I'm so sorry. It must be hard for you, because Jack is really too young to understand about infertility. With it taking us over a year to conceive Maggie, secondary infertility is something I worry about for the future.

    I'm praying for you to have another miracle soon!

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  13. Nicole,
    I'm so sorry for the pain you felt when you heard Jack ask that. My son has said only one time that he wished he had a sister, but other than that, he has never asked me when he will be getting one. I dread the day that he does ask. Thank you for sharing your pain with us. It really does help so much to know that I am not the only one who is going through something like this. Praying for you guys to receive another little blessing soon.
    -J

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  14. Going through the same thing at our home.. my DS says all the time, "Did Jesus heal the "owie" in your belly yet, so I can have a brother to play with soon?"
    I always tell him that we just have to keep asking and waiting, the Lord is faithful.

    Lord let your graces fall, hear our prayers.

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