I know many of you agonized with me when the news of the abortion was final. But to be honest, I feel a bit guilty allowing you to feel so sad for me. Because as the adoption/abortion story was developing - the days literally paralleled - we found out...I'm pregnant!
You guys...this is something I never expected. I'll elaborate on the whole story in days to come (you may have noticed I've been a bit MIA lately), but the short story is that I never even had a cycle after my surgery!
I had some pains and blood on a Thursday and I, of course, assumed I was starting my cycle. But the blood didn't last more than a couple of hours, which was odd. I assumed I was still getting back to normal after surgery. So I talked to the nurse the next day (Friday) and asked her what she thought. She basically said it could be a million things and told me to take a test by the end of the weekend. That same day is the day my friend called me with the potential adoption situation. Of course, I jumped at the request. My wonderful husband and I have always had a mutual understanding that if ever presented with the option of saving a child from abortion neither of us would hesitate to offer to adopt.
So, the days went on and as I was praying like never before for this young mother not to abort her child, I was also taking more pg tests, getting hormone blood tests done, and praying, yet holding back any excitement for fear of disappointment, that this was really happening!
Because we feared that our news might affect the birth mother's decision, we kept our news to ourselves (not to mention it was still very, very early). However, we were fully prepared to raise non-biological twins if that's what God had in store for us. In fact, we were pretty excited about the prospect! It would be a challenge, but certainly a unique and exciting situation!
Well, as you all know, the adoption situation ended tragically in abortion. We were devastated. But we had to move on.
Back to my news. Because I hadn't had a cycle since my surgery (I literally haven't had a period since January!), we weren't quite sure how far along I was. So my doctor ordered an early-term ultrasound. I was so thankful for that because I didn't even have a due date yet!
I had my ultrasound two Mondays ago. They determined at the time that I was 6 weeks, 4 days, which makes me about 8 1/2 weeks now. They also determined my due date to be Dec. 2. They also determined another important piece of information. You guys.........................
There's nothing I can type in a blog post that conveys my complete and utter SHOCK at hearing that news!!! Good shock! But shock, nonetheless! I don't have twins in my family. I have friends with twins, but none that live nearby or that I've been a part of their growing up. This was just out of the realm of possibility for me! Twins aren't part of a world I'm familiar with! Ha!!! Mike's paternal grandmother is a twin, but could that affect me?? We're still working on figuring that out. It was absolutely amazing, miraculous news! The best part about it is: THE LAST FOUR YEARS FINALLY MAKE PERFECT AND COMPLETE SENSE.
I hope none of this information hurts any of you. It may seem like this all happened very quickly for me, since I've only been a part of the IF blogosphere since January. But rest assured, I have been carrying the IF cross for four years. It's simply a miracle. One that I don't even come close to deserving.
There are so many more things I want to allude to, like the fact that I visited St. Gianna right before my surgery, that my mom said the Mary, Undoer of Knots novena before/during my surgery, that despite the abortion we ended up with two babies after all and what that means, etc, but this post is already too long so I might have to elaborate in upcoming posts!
In the meantime, I'm still very early and twins are considered low-risk/high-risk, so any prayers are MUCH appreciated. These kids have had me sick in bed for days on end (which is a good thing!), so please just pray that they're growing and developing like good babies should! God bless you all. I certainly don't deserve this.