It has been on more than one occasion that a friend has said something to this effect, regarding our twin pregnancy: "It's because of your 'yes' to God that He has blessed you abundantly." They usually say this after I tell them of the parallel between the failed adoption situation and our finding out we're pregnant with twins. First let me say that, no, I don't think it's a simple coincidence that we were prepared to raise non-biological twins had the mother chosen life and that after her abortion we're now pregnant with twins. I don't think it's coincidental at all. I truly believe that one of the children in my womb represents the life of the one that was lost. If that makes sense. It's kind of hard to put into words.
But...I also have a hard time accepting that we're somehow being specially blessed because of it.
I guess it's because I don't feel like offering to adopt a child who was likely to be aborted is some sort of heroic gesture. I don't feel like it's something we should be getting "extra credit" for. I feel like it's just....obvious.
I was talking about this with my husband the other night. He said, "Yeah. If you were given the opportunity to take in a slave who would either remain in a life of abuse and suffering or live with you even though it was a little bit inconvenient, would anyone say no?" Ummm...exactly. Why on earth would anyone not volunteer for this? I guess maybe I've just been in the pro-life movement long enough to know that most pro-lifers are inherently selfless and would do the same. So no, I don't feel like I should be "blessed abundantly" for our "yes" to God.
I'm not saying I'm not grateful for those kind words. And I'm certainly not saying I'm not grateful for our blessing of twins!!! Please, please, please don't interpret it that way!! I sincerely believe we've been blessed abundantly!!! I just don't know why. I get a little uncomfortable with those sort of accolades, as if we somehow did something heroic by offering to adopt that child. Because we didn't. Again...it was just obvious.